Her Diary♥

redlovespade @ 2008-06-22T13:45:00

2008-06-22T06:04:01Z

omg! school is like freaking starting tmr! argh! looking back my holiday is more like studying, dancing and maybe a little part of fun with friends. hahas. when school starts im going to try to study everyday( i don't think i can but will try), do my best in my dancing! im sick since thursday! =( had throat infection. i hardly cann taste my drinks/ food. swallow is oso a problem. it's gives me sleepless nights too. argh! i must get well soon man. more vitamin c for me! hahas. kies i need to clean up i spill my drinks. bye!

I know very well

2008-06-20T16:36:08Z

ICE SKATING, BOWLING & BLACK PEPPER CRAB TODAY!
i had fun. so much funny stuffs okay. next time i shall ask ppl go instead. i tink go with friends are more fun. hehe.
im falling sick. going to see the doctor tmr morning. haiss. kies i will let pictures do the talking. damn dead tired now.

my mum say this looks like candy. lol =X

my brother tinks he is darn cool lah.

that's all. GOODNIGHT! xD

Quizzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-06-19T14:31:56Z

1)what disappoints you the most?
-Having to know that you friend just backstab you.

2)Where would you go if someone sponsors you a air ticket
-Hong kong

3)Whats your favourite thing to do
-SHOPPING!

4)Do you think money can buy happiness
-NOPE!

5)If you have one dream to come true ,what will it be?
-Get 10 points fer O level

6)Do you believe you can survive without money?
- NO! cause i need to eat and shop.

7)What are you afraid to lose?
-Things that are most precious to me

8)If you win one million,what would you do
1st-SHOPPING!
2nd-Travel round the world
3rd- buy stuffs for my family
4th-save the rest for others

9)What do you dream of doing in the future
-reality:Retail
Dream: actress/model. (hopeless fer me i gues

10)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-She's my bestfriend, understand and listens to me!

11)What makes you happy?
- To have friends whom are fun to be with. thoes whom make you laugh like there's no tmr.

12)What type of person you hate most?
-i dun really hate people unless they did something really bad/mean to me or my friends

13)you could have a superpower,what would it be?
-Like rouge in x-men. she can have any power so long as she touch someone.

14)Which season do you like
Spring!

15)What do you think it is the most important in your life
-Family, friends and dreams

16)If it's the end of the world ,what will be your last wish
-Hope i will meet all my friend again next life?

17)If you have a chance to choose,would you like to come back in time
-YES! so i can change whatever i regerted.

18)What is the ONE thing you want it badly NOW
-MONEY! im totally broke now. =(
19)What is the stupidest thing you have done
-Falling down and it's still is.

20)Do you have a pet?
-nope.

laopo make me do this. so yar that's all. hahas. i need to check my phone man but im lazy to take since it's upstairs.
okay shall not use the com already. i did nothing today again. ugh! stupid. Goodnight.

Giving it a try

2008-06-19T10:53:00Z

im back. hahas. im taking a break after blading. my brother's turn to blade. hahas. both of us are such loser lah. my sister i even better than us okay. hahas. okay i must try not to be scared of falling down. hehe. okay ice skating tmr! i 100% will fall down. oops! im going wif my family but but but i tink go wif friends are more fun but who cann go lei??? girlfriend say she going wif her friends lei but dunno she say she will msg me. so im waiting....
okay im going to blade fer a while more. hope i dun fall! xD

Swirl of sensations

2008-06-18T16:42:22Z

Our dance concert poster. i just put them up. cos im suppose to i guess to promote our concert. even though i know not much ppl read my lj. anyway im very tired and hungry now and having a headache. so i will end here.
im just sick of all these stuffs.

i want to be with ppl whom make me smile unconsciously

2008-06-17T15:56:10Z

oh man! i hate it. i really do okay.
totally sucks like hell lah.
i really have to get my ass out of this computer
and start to study like hell. urgh!
omg! and my holidays are ending like in 5 days time.
shit man! i have to start packing my table.
books are like piling up like nobody's business.
today it's super tiring. came home instead of having dinner wif them.
wanted to cool myself before bathing.
but instead i fell asleep on my floor.
just woke up and faster bath.
lessons and cca tmr. damn sian lah.
haven been eating proper meals.
it's bad but is i zhi zao one.
so i won't complain.
kies today is not a good day at all.
i shall not make myself suffer when you are not.
wat for?
kies im off to bed now. Goodnight.

i want to be with ppl whom make me smile unconsciously.
and only than would i be happy inside.

As long as you are happy, it's okay

2008-06-13T16:48:15Z

I HAD A GREAT WEEK!
okay let's start with tues since i have blog abt monday in my previous entry.
had extra lesson in the morning. which our school save electricity so we studied outside.
freaking warm okay. and and and worse still there was a lizard lah! i scream lyk nobody's business can.
so embarrassing. anyway after tat went to arab street to buy cloth fer our opening.
wow you should see our faces like tourist okay. hahas. only krysten and charlottle.
me and clare was busy looking at cloths. after tat went bugis street window shopping.
took 12 home. i was just embarrassing myself
and there is this man whom kept turing and staring at me in watever i do or say he will look at me.
so scary okay. and i thought izzit i know him but when i look. wth i dun even know him lah.
idiot pervert man. i shall start my unhappiness.
firstly, fuck man how can you let a girl pay fer your meals.
are you a guy anot? gay sia! just fucking get lost okay.
such a loser lah. just using girls only lah and please you are not good looking either.

wed had extra lesson yet again. but with rosy and tabitha. omg! i only did like one question.
cos most of the time we were bitching and gossiping. it's so freaking funny and fun lah.
after tat last min decision to go charlotte's house fer gym. damn tired.
after gym we decided to go ikea eat the hotdogs. went giant and and im going back there again. hehe.
home kinda late.

thurs had extra lessons. after tat took a bus wif charlotte and krysten to far east.
ate at LJ and waited fer laopo. after tat walk ard and they have to go.
so left me and laopo. walked some more bought my shoes and some accessories.
girlfriend ask me watch movie wif she and some other friends. so we went.
watch missing and it's not worth it waste my money only lah. after the time i was just covering my eyes.
see wat lah and now i tink abt it. it's not as scary as it was. so stupid the show. wasted. home kinda late
and my mum just have to end things worse. fuck this life lah okay.

today had extra lessons. hehe. it's bitching time again. hahas. after tat watch kung fu panda.
omg it's hilarious lah. i laugh so hard until i cry and can't laugh anymore. hahas.
i love tat show lah. it's the funniest show i have ever watch this year i guess.
after tat went tabitha's house to bake muffins. hehe. it's fun with them.
feels different somehow. we were lyk high and after tat went dead and high again.
sugar level. hahas. it's fun with them. i love today the most! xD

okay i shall end here. too much photos and im lazy.
laopo sorry i tmr do your quiz kies. goodnight people!

the tiny part of my heart says i miss you.

2008-06-09T13:00:32Z

SHOPPING YTD!
im quite happy wif wat i've got fer myself.
but im still not satisfied at all. wth.
i know wat i want yet i can't find them! argh! stupid.
anyway im going shopping wif laopo and girlfriend soon.
i need $$$ badly. if not i can't shop at all. stupid!
oh and im fucking fucked up wif this fucking man whom keep stepping on my slipper.
fuck lah. he is lucky i didn't just say him okay. so fucked up lah.
im already this clumsy and he wants to add on? fuck man
okay nvm.
today i hav accounts tuition in the morning. guess wat?
i couldn't wake up can. talk to girlfriend ytd till 1am plus.
than my brother till 2 am plus. shouldn't have listen to him.
so happen to met veni in the bus. and we were the first.
off fer tuition. im damn gong lah. i forgot everything okay.
make me feel so stupid only. after tuition.
suppose to meet feli to bake but she had cca so cancel.
pei them lunch than meet girlfriend and char mummy. they went gym.
so i waited. i feel such a loser waiting there.
lunched wif them at tm and arcade. so boring there. wanted to catch movie.
but but but........
so ate a little dinner at macs.
accounts homework and home!

firstly, i need to watch movies!
secondly, i wanted to play pool and bowling
thirdly, i need a shopping spree badly.
lastly, im going on a diet. hehe
okay im done here. byes!

get it over.

i love today. =)

2008-06-07T17:45:17Z

I'M HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE!
i won't complain and i miss my friends. =)
and i don't wish to break anything.
everything just stay the same kies?
Love you all.

redlovespade @ 2008-06-06T09:39:00

2008-06-06T14:12:10Z

ytd was a happy day. caught made of honour. hahas. it's not a bad show. had 4 hours of maths and im still up fer it. it's crazy okay. first time im so into maths. which is good i wanna be good at everything and aim fer my course! overall im happy wif the company. xD

today went to school i almost want to msg my friends say im not going cos im super damn tired. but nope i still end up at school. had 1 hour maths than ate lunch and rush home to bath and all and meet my modern dancers but they called and say they have see finish so end up not meeting them rot at home called girlfriend. chit chat but im more engrossed in my com. and i had donuts waiting fer me to eat but i can't while talking to her and using the com. put down and i ate my donuts. once in a while pleasure would be nice. im craving fer tomato soup now!~ and i wanna slim down alot! hehe. oh yar. i just read these predictions fer the furture and it's really scary just reading them. but if it's true wat can i do? so now im going to try to enjoy watever i have and treasures those i love. im going to be selfish abit just so i won't lose them. hehe sound stupid. but yar at least i dun regert anything.
laopo: dun moody kies. let's go out soon i miss you! and you know wat! actually i dunno wat. hahas. cheer up. love you!
girlfriend: i dun tink you will see these but nvm. hahas. dun sian. just be happy kies. love you!
okay. i got a whole list of movie i wanna catch and movie marthorn. i feel like having a bbq. hahas. i wan a gathering and let's all go drunk. hahas. impossible anyway. sun will be a shopping day fer me!~ spending time wif mummy. i tink i neglect her i suddenly felt it. okay im done now. Goodnight people! i love you!

im head over heels with you

2008-06-04T13:58:44Z

TODAY IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY HOLIDAY!
sp today. we got left behind.
reason= we were in the toilet.
it's stupid lah. but but i dun regert at all.
hahas. we went to watch the guys playing water polo.
omg! they are so damn hot lah! we stand there fer dunno how long.
argh! than one guy is damn cute! hehehehehe.
i can't stop tinking. oops.
so now my aim is to find a water polo boyfriend.
hahas. i tink im crazy lah. go round telling ppl.
so after tat tour sp. it's damn cool tat will be my second choice of ploy.
first is tp. im aiming!
took a train to bedok than frm there back to 85 fer dinner.
during the journey. laugh all the way. lots happen on our way.
it feels so different wif them. hahas. i enjoy myself. hehe.
reach 85 saw nat, chole, natasha, cammie.
hahas. than we gossip gossip.
im a number 1 bitch sia.
two things:
1) love to find a water polo boyfriend.
2) hate copycats.
im done wif dancing now. having break. but my extra lesson still goes on. sian
maybe i won't be going some im dead tired.
maths tmr and friday. sat church. can't wait to meet feli. hehe
bitching session wanted!~
okay im done now. Goodnights!

revenge is as sweet as honey

2008-05-30T15:37:39Z

this whole week was either dance or lessons in school which pretty much sucks. dance was tiring. but it's fun too. so pretty much my first week of holiday is. which will contiune through out june. im going fer dance concert tmr. and im meeting girlfriend ever since the last time i see and talk to her was really long. had dinner today after dance. i had no idea how i survive but yar we walk ard too. hahas. bus-ed home and almost fell asleep. hehe. kies im going to end here. nothing mush to say anyway. Goodnight people!~

Sleep, my only love.

2008-05-26T09:55:13Z

I GOT 31 POINTS FER MID YEAR! wow! i so can go to ploy with tat.
Today o level chinese. i screwed up my paper 1 which say li & bi. the advantages and disadvantages. but i can't find the meaning of bi cos i dun even know the han yu bing yi. wtf lah. i took lyk half an hour just going through the dic and i still can't find them. than took 1 hour to do section A and half an hour on B. which i finish but still got alot to write but no time to tink. fuck fuck fuck. i hate myself fer tat. paper 2 was so-so. but i dunno is correct anot. oral starts when term 2 being. argh! i just hope i get c6 than i won't retake at all. cos im not even taking tis as one of my subject so wat's the point? after tat sneak out of the hall cos we need to pack the tables and chairs. tuition so need to eat. hehe. but still late. now im home! my june is fucking pack i cann hardly breathe. tmr 2 hours on ss and bio. 3hours of dance. and many many many extra lessons and practice to go. Hell is here to haunt me!

List to do during holidays:
-SHOPPING!
-bitching session with the clique
-study dates
-out wif laopo
-out wif girlfriend
-ice skating( do we have time?)
-movies!~

this is all i can tink of. hahas any more of them than i will write them down. hahas. eh! i wanna go ons but tmr got school even though they are going but yar! this holiday totally sucks. hmmm. tinking of making another livejournal. hahas. who cares. byes!

I don't believe in forever.

2008-05-22T10:17:17Z

Last day of school. the weather is killing me. O level chinese is next monday and im starting to feel a little scared. wow! first time i guess. today im totally werid! my mood was up and down. so i gave up and shut up. tat will do the trick. feet was killing me to the extreme. hardly can walk. one of my reasons fer being so moody i guess. and i doubt i will be able to go KL by how my june holidays are so packed. argh! hate this but just get it over and done with. kies im going to enjoy wat i have now and wait hell to come my way. byes!~

twilight summer

2008-05-18T05:41:13Z

i lost interest in everything i guess. nothing motivates me. expect fer my studies. got back all expect english and guess wat. i only had one A2 and the rest are D7 or E8. how depressing! i dun even know how to react to these. im really going to take the next few month until my o levels to study lyk hell. and dance too. church ytd and home today. had sore eyes. so can't go anywhere. i feel lyk shutting myself up at home. oops!
Dance concert at vch. prices are $15, $20, $25.
first come first serve. xD

redlovespade @ 2008-05-11T22:04:00

2008-05-11T14:15:17Z

im lazy to do lots of stuffs! and im still tired after 13 hours of sleep. hehe. im turning pig soon. tmr i dunno whether i wanna go watch movie anot lol. how!~ i wanna go out yet oso dun feel lyk. argh! i hate this. okay just came back frm dinner outside my house there. and when i walk back. i didn't even see this big puddle and i jump right into it. oh god lah! how blind am i?!?! came home straight away bath okay. so ewwww. okay wat should i do tmr! i can't just rot at home right? argh! i will figure it out ltr. im off to watch my shows!~ Goodnight.

redlovespade @ 2008-05-09T23:51:00

2008-05-09T16:07:59Z

If our love was like a fairytale,
our love would have a happy ending.
If our love was like a dream,
i would stay there forever.
Cause you are my dream love,
i will dream of you for eternity.
Till the day my heart beat stops,
i will continue dreaming.

finally my exams are over! im so glad it did. my day passes by damn quickly. i didn't even know wat happen the past few days. i dun remebering wat i did at all. but nvm it's over liao. no point remembering. outing today! hehe. watch what happen in vegas. omg! it's a damn good movie. must watch show! and there is somemore movie i wanna watch but i hav no money. after tat train to meet my mummy. bought one white wedges, purple dress, red&black dress. hehe. im happy today. and i wanted this super high black heels which is damn pretty! but mummy say expensive. didn't wanna buy fer me. than i say got discount must buy fer me. hehe. okay many things i need to do and it's so late already. so i shall end here and blog again. Goodnight!

can i be selfish to ask you to love only me?

2008-05-04T09:54:04Z

Dream happy dreams
You are the only one who
has ever touched my
heart
It will always be yours
Sleep my only love?

it's so hard to get close to you.

2008-05-02T10:04:24Z

im done wif geo and maths now!~ geo was really horrible!~ all the these i learn didn't came out and the topic i supposedly tell myself it would come out and i will just skip it cos i hav no time came out. wth! i know it's my fault too lah. but i really can't rmb wat. but im kinda proud of my maths lah. hahas. i do all the question only one i didn't have time to do them. guess it's kinda easy i suppose? but after tat my brain really went dead! oh god! im going to suffer sia. germaine suppose to come opp school today but called her and she say not today next week. sad. miss her lah! xD tmr meet feli fer church. bio, phy and accounts here i come!~ be nice to me kies? i really need to pass. kies im off to de-stress. i need it badly lol. hehe. byes!~

just to see your face

2008-04-30T08:37:55Z

i love them to bits!

finally a short little break tmr. im dying frm memorising all the notes and formulas. i can hardly take a break at all. tmr im going to study my geo and read through maths. i can't wait fer geo to be over im having headaches and sleepless night just by memorising the notes. woke up at 4am to study ss today. and i can say is so far all my papers sucks okay! urgh! i must get back to books now. 5 more to go and im free! xD

replacing the emptiness in me but it will never be

2008-04-26T16:33:18Z

exams are coming!~ it's next week. omg! time to panic sia. i haven finsh or started some of them yet. so im dead dead dead!~ the week is BORING and super sick! nothing but books. only something tat make me moody and irritated till i really wanna dun care anymore. but than nvm lol. i can't really rmb wat my week was. is friday is rosy birthday. hehe. xD love her to bits!~ time passes so fast now tat i have so much things to do. talk to girlfriend on wed night. omg! i really miss her lyk hell okay!~ really love telling her everything. but sometimes she just can't be there fer me. but it's okay! hehe. cos there is always hp but fer her she takes years to reply. hahas. nvm after exam i got watever stuffs i will just find one day out wif her and pour it all out to her. until she is scared of me. hahas. =x kidding! anyway i will blog after exam or when im free and online again. hehe. bought 2 tops frm topshop today saw a purple top which i love it alot. my brother decided to pay fer me fer my birthday. hehe. at popular. so pissed off. i can't find my books. irritating. church wif feli today. shopping! ate mos and ice cream!~ home home home. kies im off to read manga. than tmr if can wake up meet ade and laopo at airport study!~ Goodnight! i miss you.

exams stress

2008-04-20T11:27:26Z

tmr is monday. left one more week till exam. i prepare to fail my mid year. anyway i won't be touching the computer. ate dounts just now. my house outside just open one. hehe. not bad. tmr night study wif laopo. hope i can finish up everything. im making themes now!~ hehe. so im off. wish me luck. byes. xD

gone and over with but it will always be there haunting me

2008-04-19T17:19:23Z

IM ONLINE! hehe. i can't believe i stay away frm the com fer 5 days. hehe. im so proud of myself. but it's tiring lol. study everyday frm day to night. can't imagine how i survive!? anyway there goes another week.
monday: school school school! extra chinese lesson! accounts tuition! home!!!!!!~
tuesday: long boring school day. 98.7 came! omg! WTH! took pictures wif the super hot guy! xD dinner. night study! dessert. yummy! home.
wednesday: 8.45 school starts. lessons past kinda fast today. extra chinese lesson. rosy house. bath there. back to school fer night study. SOMEONE bully me! =( dinner dinner in school. chase out of school. walked HOME!
thursday: GASTRIC!~ =( see doctor, soree thorat too. went to school fer night study! girlfriend wanna starve me to death. porridge. HOME! i know wat im feeling!~ =X
friday: finally friday!!! extra chinese lesson. night study! someone make me walk one big round! =X dinner, gastric, porridge. something happen. and im just so so so embarrass. i fell down. it's super cartoon. i got no idea how i fell why i will fell. it's just taking out my skirt and i can just fell. how pro cann i get hur? and elaine almost make me fell backwards. lucky got val there and i hold her super tight. after tat home! called elaine.
sat: MET FELI! omg i miss her okay! hehe. church church church. dinner. yummy. she baked cupcakes. xD shop shop. bubble tea. home!
it's stupid okay. i can't bend down. may i just stop falling down. please?
okay im off now. got lots to do so little time. Goodnight!

i'll hold onto memories

2008-04-13T09:27:07Z

CIP ytd! i dunno whr to hide my face! hahas. so pai sei to ask ppl lah. anyway was late to meet them cos of the stupid bus. make me wait so damn long lah. so took bus 10 to tm inter than either bus 18/28/38 to library there.
was raining lyk nobody's business. prissy came to fetch me frm the bus stop becos i got no umbrella i should get one soon! than reach there half my body was wet. got the tin and went toliet to dry myself. than off to town. first shop ard than lunch at pepper lunch. it was damn hilarious okay! kept laughing. than went fox and they try on clothes. finally! girlfriend come. hahas. she haven ate yet so me, nat, cammie and prissy follow her to mos to eat. than we went to ask fer donation cos we all felt guilty not doing them and my tin is super light. split into groups. me and girlfriend head to far east the direction. walk on whole round till we are at paragon and still too pai sei to ask. hahas. saw them at paragon so we ask fer donation there. everyone was lyk helping girlfriend. and i just stand there tinking wheather to ask anot. but i guess it's my lucky day. cos i didn't ask much ppl just came to me and put the money in. but after tat i did ask lah. i shall donate next time! hahas. after tat went back to library. was late. than go sperate ways. girlfriend can go fer dinner so we went. had ice cream fer dinner only and old chang kee. yummy!~ suppose to catch a movie but dunno wat to watch since both of us haven been watching movie lately. so home we go. read my book finish and slept at 2am. i make brownies today and clear my bookshelves and i feel so sick now. having flu and sore thorat. i won't be coming online often now. going to be in school till night. i really need to catch up/ study badly now. i feel so stress tat i just wanna give up now!~ but i won't of course. death note today and im watching it! =X L is damn cute lah! hehe xD kies im off now. byes! i love you.

you're the sweetest thing

2008-04-11T14:30:27Z

HELLO. HELLO. HELLO. im feeling super duper irritated! i can kill ppl now! ARGH!
today was international friendship day. play dress up! had mexico. my skirt was super long i have to hold it up whenever i walk up the stairs and down. in case i fall which i almost did a few times. i can't seem to stop falling/ tripping hur? had cca today. tiring and all. kinda disapointed in myself. i hate it. anyway no dinner today. so bus and walked home. i tink the school wants to kill us. having chinese and 1 day of poa the whole of next 2 weeks frm 2.45-4pm. wth! whr got time to study lah.so i tink i will be in school everyday frm 7.15am-9pm in school? madness! i will either get stress till my limit or i will just fall sick. damn it! cip tmr. sian. pictures will be up when i had all of them. im off now! Goodnight!~